For pharmacist Hugh Toner (BScPHā87), the sky was the limit when he graduated high school.
Growing up on a potato farm in rural New Brunswick, he learned to drive trucks and tractors from an early age, was raised by two loving parents, played sports and had high marks. It was an idyllic life, where academic and athletic pilipiliĀž»es came easy. In his last year of high school, he was athlete of the year, and class valedictorian.
āI was looking forward to university,ā he says. āI had a great life.ā
Everything changed when he entered university. For someone who was good at everything, being suddenly thrust into adulthood and expected to choose a career path was overwhelming.
āI left high school feeling like a big fish in a small pond. Soon, I became a small fish in a vast ocean. My first year of university felt like someone said: āon your mark, get setā¦ decide what you want to do for the rest of your life.ā Suddenly, I couldnāt concentrate in class, things were very difficult. I didnāt have the skills to navigate those pressures at that age.ā
Thatās when he experienced his first bouts of depression, which he remembers as very dark times. Back then he didnāt know how to deal with it, so he did not seek treatment or talk about what he was going through. In his final year of Pharmacy at Dal, he remembers everyone else enjoying a period of celebration, while he suffered alone.
āAs I was nearing the end of my Pharmacy program. I remember we all took a trip to Spain. I spent most of it in a hotel room while people went to the beach.ā
A crusade to help others
After a 30-year journey of healing and service to his community as a pharmacist, Toner is on a mission to help those with a similar story come out of the darkness. He speaks candidly about his experiences with depression and wants students who experience the same thing to know they are not alone. The first step to healing, he says, is to bring things out in the open.
āYears ago, it was embarrassing for me; here I was a pharmacist and I had these mental health issues. Over the years Iāve been on a journey to understand my mind and how it works so I could understand what was happening to me, get treatment and make sure my children didnāt go through what I went through. Understanding myself and talking about my experiences became my crusade.ā
On his path to recovery, Toner carved out a pilipiliĀž»ful career as the owner of two Medicine Shoppe pharmacies in Sydney, NS and became an accomplished actor, motivational speaker, and singer with two professionally recorded albums. He is married with two children; his son Brandon is also Dal grad (BScPharmā15) who works in his pharmacies. His daughter Lauren also works at the pharmacies and is pursuing a masterās in counselling psychology degree.
Despite the bouts of depression in his first year of science and also in his final year of pharmacy at Dal, he says his experiences at the College of Pharmacy shaped his career in many ways.
Pharmacy provided a closely-knit community, which fostered opportunities in leadership, sports, and creativity. āAs a small, intimate College nested within the Faculty of Health at Dal, we could we could get to know each other, and the faculty knew us personally. Dal provided the perfect environment for me to grow professionally, and personally.ā
He now uses the knowledge heās gained to help other people and encourages clients to seek out advice and assistance from pharmacists, who are often on the front lines of mental health issues.
āPharmacists are some of the most accessible health professionals. Thereās a pharmacy in every community, people can just walk in off the street, in many cases without an appointment,ā he says. āIf someone is having a mental health crisis or going through a rough patch, advice and consultation is only steps away.ā
After a long road of recovery, he now sees his depression as a gift.
āHad I not been depressed, I would never have been led down a path where I could help myself and others,ā he says. āI went from not being able to get out of bed, to having this wonderful family, rewarding career and getting to talk to people from around the world. Iām truly blessed.ā
Mental Health Tips
For students who may be struggling with depression or other mental health issues, Hugh Tonerās advice is to first get treatment that is person-centered and works for them, which may include meditation, therapy and other interventions. Here are some other tips:
- āMake a list of 10 things you truly love. It could be something as simple as petting the cat. When youāre feeling down, take out this ālove listā (I call it) and read it over then pick one to focus on."
- "Try and shift the momentum of thoughts that youāre having as early as you can. This slows the momentum. You can slow down your thoughts for a period of time by engaging in meditation, having a nap, or going for a walk. All of these will induce relaxation; therefore promoting a calm state of being."
- "Most importantly, give yourself a break. Instead of beating yourself up, be gentle with yourself; with time, everything tends to work out.ā
Information and Resources:
- Dal Student Health & Wellness Centre:Ā Book an appointment with an RN, doctors, social workers, psychiatrists, social workers and more.
- Dal Mental Health Resources:Ā Book a same-day counselling appointment, chat online or over the phone with a social worker and more.
- Ā A community pharmacy program designed to improve care for Nova Scotians with issues in mental health and addictions.