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The body's prisoner

- March 11, 2009 The Diving Bell and the Butterfly, Shawn Jennings had a brain-stem stroke. "I was left 'locked-in.'" he explains. "That means everything in your body is paralyzed. You can't talk. You can't eat. You can't move… (but) your brain knows everything."" />

Journalist Jean-Dominque Bauby describes what life is like after suffering a massive stroke in the book, The Diving Bell and the Butterfly. The film version will be screenedĀ on Monday, followed by a panel discussion featuring Shawn Jennings, who also suffered a brainstem stroke.

After graduating from Dalhousie Medical School, Shawn Jennings spent an active 20 years as a pilipiliĀž»­ful family doctor.Ā Then suddenly, one spring day in 1999, Dr. Jennings was suddenly unable to eat, speak to his family, or move anything but his eyes.

ā€œI had a brainstem stroke,ā€ says Dr. Jennings. ā€œI was left ā€˜locked-in.ā€™ That means everything in your body is paralyzed. You canā€™t talk. You canā€™t eat. You canā€™t moveā€¦ (but) your brain knows everything.ā€

Dr. Jennings was 45. Since then he has been in slow, continuous recovery. ā€œIā€™m able to eat now, Iā€™m able to talk,ā€ he says in a phone conversation. ā€œIā€™m in a power wheelchair. I can move my left arm to eatā€¦ this happened 10 years ago. I may have stayed (totally) locked-in for about four months.ā€ It was, however, two years before he could speak clearly enough to be understood.

While he fought to reclaim his body, Dr. Jennings also exercised his mind. ā€œI started writing about a year after my strokeā€¦ I had read The Diving Bell and the Butterflyā€¦ā€ (Jean-Dominique Baubyā€™s memoir of locked-in syndrome, dictated one eyelash-flutter at a time.) ā€œThe nurse mentioned to me ā€˜you should write a memoirā€™ because she thought that my experience of being a doctor would be unique.ā€

The writing process was physically therapeutic, helping Dr. Jennings regain the use of his hand. However, his past in the medical field proved a challenge to more personal writing. ā€œI had to stop writing like a doctor. That was a challenge, not to slip into medical lingo. I wanted to keep it in laymanā€™s termsā€¦ writing a memoir, you write from your own experiences, in your own name.ā€

Dr. Jenningsā€™ book, Locked In Locked Out, was published in 2002. Twice reprinted, it is now a textbook at the University of New Brunswick and at Queenā€™s University.

Shawn Jennings continues to writeā€”when he can find the time. ā€œIā€™ve been so busy with committees and my community; I donā€™t have a lot of time to write.ā€

Highly involved in volunteer activities, including the Stroke Network, Dr. Jennings also serves as president at the Canadian Association of Physicians with Disabilities and on New Brunswickā€™s Premierā€™s Council on the Status of Disabled Persons.

ā€œDuring the mornings, thatā€™s mostly dedicated to exerciseā€¦ the afternoon, thatā€™s mostly devoted to lots of work with committees. If I have a moment or two, Iā€™ll write. And in the evenings, thatā€™s my leisure time.ā€

Dr. Jennings regained a measure of mobility. But locked-in syndrome can be a life sentence. Not all patients can undergo even a limited recovery, and some will remain locked-in for the rest of their lives ā€“ especially traumatic given the lack of public awareness of the syndrome.

On Monday, March 16, Novel Tech Ethics will give a public screening of the recent film version of The Diving Bell and the Butterfly, with a panel discussion to follow.

Shawn Jennings has been asked to sit on the panel. ā€œThis is put on by (Novel Tech Ethics),ā€ he explains, ā€œAnd they want to reach the publicā€¦ you know, I talk to many people, and I usually tell them my main messageā€”talking about my turn to acceptance and finding happiness after a life-changing event. But this will be the first time, I imagine, theyā€™ll be talking about the ethical questions surrounding the state of being locked-in. And so this is completely new for me.ā€

The Diving Bell and the Butterfly will be shown at 7 p.m. on Monday, March 16, at the Halifax Infirmary, QEII Royal Bank Theatre at 1796 Summer Street. Seating is limited.