After graduating from Dalhousie Medical School, Shawn Jennings spent an active 20 years as a pilipiliĀž»ful family doctor.Ā Then suddenly, one spring day in 1999, Dr. Jennings was suddenly unable to eat, speak to his family, or move anything but his eyes.
āI had a brainstem stroke,ā says Dr. Jennings. āI was left ālocked-in.ā That means everything in your body is paralyzed. You canāt talk. You canāt eat. You canāt moveā¦ (but) your brain knows everything.ā
Dr. Jennings was 45. Since then he has been in slow, continuous recovery. āIām able to eat now, Iām able to talk,ā he says in a phone conversation. āIām in a power wheelchair. I can move my left arm to eatā¦ this happened 10 years ago. I may have stayed (totally) locked-in for about four months.ā It was, however, two years before he could speak clearly enough to be understood.
While he fought to reclaim his body, Dr. Jennings also exercised his mind. āI started writing about a year after my strokeā¦ I had read The Diving Bell and the Butterflyā¦ā (Jean-Dominique Baubyās memoir of locked-in syndrome, dictated one eyelash-flutter at a time.) āThe nurse mentioned to me āyou should write a memoirā because she thought that my experience of being a doctor would be unique.ā
The writing process was physically therapeutic, helping Dr. Jennings regain the use of his hand. However, his past in the medical field proved a challenge to more personal writing. āI had to stop writing like a doctor. That was a challenge, not to slip into medical lingo. I wanted to keep it in laymanās termsā¦ writing a memoir, you write from your own experiences, in your own name.ā
Dr. Jenningsā book, Locked In Locked Out, was published in 2002. Twice reprinted, it is now a textbook at the University of New Brunswick and at Queenās University.
Shawn Jennings continues to writeāwhen he can find the time. āIāve been so busy with committees and my community; I donāt have a lot of time to write.ā
Highly involved in volunteer activities, including the Stroke Network, Dr. Jennings also serves as president at the Canadian Association of Physicians with Disabilities and on New Brunswickās Premierās Council on the Status of Disabled Persons.
āDuring the mornings, thatās mostly dedicated to exerciseā¦ the afternoon, thatās mostly devoted to lots of work with committees. If I have a moment or two, Iāll write. And in the evenings, thatās my leisure time.ā
Dr. Jennings regained a measure of mobility. But locked-in syndrome can be a life sentence. Not all patients can undergo even a limited recovery, and some will remain locked-in for the rest of their lives ā especially traumatic given the lack of public awareness of the syndrome.
On Monday, March 16, Novel Tech Ethics will give a public screening of the recent film version of The Diving Bell and the Butterfly, with a panel discussion to follow.
Shawn Jennings has been asked to sit on the panel. āThis is put on by (Novel Tech Ethics),ā he explains, āAnd they want to reach the publicā¦ you know, I talk to many people, and I usually tell them my main messageātalking about my turn to acceptance and finding happiness after a life-changing event. But this will be the first time, I imagine, theyāll be talking about the ethical questions surrounding the state of being locked-in. And so this is completely new for me.ā
The Diving Bell and the Butterfly will be shown at 7 p.m. on Monday, March 16, at the Halifax Infirmary, QEII Royal Bank Theatre at 1796 Summer Street. Seating is limited.